What you said when you left. Just left me cold and outta breath

The internet finally fixed, turns out its not my com got problem. Sometimes trusty Compaq will survive ALL-THE-WAY till the next Singapore PC fair. Just downloaded more Daughtry songs, 'over you' actually means alot, to me, maybe its similar? Yes it is, your fine kid. Your not bleeding that much. You had a bruise and its fading, healing very well. Yea, scars don't fade blu, they just remind you that exposed area which you once left it open. Well then lets cover up and leave it eh? It don't mean anything to you no more right? Guess thats kinda true, maybe not anymore. Maybe not at all. You see kid, when your not sure, it comes back to you like a boomerang. You got to know that your sure and move turd. Thanks blu, guess you are a pretty nice voice in my head. Get it straight, when your sad I'm sad. You affect me cause I live in your emotions.

Just bought a Gillette Fusion Power shaver. I smashed my brothers racket, don't intend to tell him till later. Spud is limping cause one of his hind legs are injured, the vet said its a 'minor' sprain and he got flu as well. Cause my fucked up maid go put dog treats into his food, fucking act smart idiot. Nope, not a Babolat. My other brother 'inherited' my psp since he started playing it. Went out with Anna and Qi and had loads of unplanned shit that was pretty fun and as 'cheap' as possible. Went Nic house, learn how to play drum thx to Joseph and Desmond, still got many more beats to learn. Wanted to go for the marathon sleepover but parents don't let. Going to buy racket and shoes tomorrow, one Dunhill Ladbrokes for walking, one tennis shoe and probably the 'K Factor' by Wilson or some Head racket. Never play tennis for a very long time, weather too hot.

All the basketball hoops broke off so no basketball. I miss rugby. Canteen food getting more and more crappy. They even weigh each dough mixture before baking it, WTF! Like TianGe said 'you see the uncle starting drive the small car now drive so big car, I hate that guy' then 'KNN CCB F...K this, F...K that, ALL MONEY GRUBBING MOTHERFU...KERS' Damn FUCK-UP lah, the school increase school fees again sia. Fucking AUNTIE IVY only know how to eat money. Say alot of bullshit like, 'we have to match up with other international schools.' FUCK IVY, FUCK BERRETT, FUCK JEROME TAN AND FUCK TAN WAH TONG. BLOODY FUCK, HIRE ALL THE FUCKING SINGAPORE TEACHERS AND SAY ITS IB TEACHERS. WT-FUCK. SAY ALOT OF BULLSHIT PROMISES LIKE 'YOU TUTORS WILL UPDATE YOU ON YOUR PROGRESS AND ARRANGE SESSIONS TO IMPROVE ON YOUR WEAKNESSES' ALL THE STAFF HERE ONLY KNOW HOW TO 'BUA' MONEY ON THEIR LAN JIAO AND LAUGH. ST JOSEPH INTERNATIONAL ALREADY HAVE A CAMPUS 4 TIMES THE SIZE READY BUILT WITH FULLY AIR-CONDITIONED CLASSROOMS AND COMPLETELY IB TRAINED TEACHERS AND THEY HAVEN'T EVEN START TILL NEXT YEAR. OUR TEACHER SEND TO SYDNEY FOR IB 'COURSE', FUCKING HOLIDAY NOT COURSE, ALL CAN'T EVEN FUCKING TEACH. MIGHT AS WELL HIRE FUCKING IB TEACHER DON'T NEED TO WASTE TIME. FUCKING FINANCIAL ADVISOR, FUCKING ONLY IVY THERE. SO MUCH MONEY LET ONE LADY CONTROL. SHOULD LET A FUCKING GROUP CONTROL OTHERWISE SHE CAN JUST DO ANYTHING SHE WANT. LIKE TAKE 5000 DOLLAR NOTE TO 'BUA' ON JEROME TAN STRAP ON DICK. 9 MILLION A YEAR, 9 FUCKING MILLION GO WHERE HUH IVY? GO DOROTHY GAM ASSHOLE? I REPEAT, $9000000, FUCKING THAT MUCH MONEY GO WHERE? STILL GOT ALL THE PARENTS FUCKING DONATE, GOT ALL THE FUCKING FUNDRAISER. STILL GOT BARKER, INDEPENDENT AND ACJC HELP US STILL NO ENOUGH. FUCKING TAN WAH TONG DIDN'T DO ANYTHING STILL WANT TO BE CHAIRMAN. BET HE DON'T EVEN HAVE A FUCKING DEGREE. MAKE HIMSELF A GUEST OF HONOR AT NEARLY EVERY SCHOOL EVENT. FUCKING SEE HIM EVERYDAY, WHAT GUEST OF HONOR, DIDN'T EVEN GIVE SPEECH. ASK HIM GO 'BUA' HIS WIFE LAN JIAO.the parents will realize eventually.

Now got to get a math tutor for everyday then can pass math at the final exam. Weekend again, closer and closer to exams. Gonna go sleep now.

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buang-ness kicking in

Dorothy is full of shit again. threaten to call my mom if I hand in late work one more time. bloody hell. stupid curry masturbating asfucker. She never come yesterday, still haven't mark our lit draft and give her student pressure. Even josephine is knows of her extremely frequent MCs. Average of 4MCs a term, got one time 2 weeks never come straight. Everyday sit there and never mark work, then say I might as well not come to class if i never bring macbeth. She even ask me if I bothered to borrow from my friends. I did but they still have literature. 'excuses JiaJun' she just as me a question, I answered but it was excuses. Then you don't ask lah! stupid fat shit.

Anyway, I won't let these bleeding imbaceils spoil my incoming weekend. Maybe waeboarding, maybe ikea on saturday with Anna? Feel damn good this whole week. Win alot of things. Win doubles match with Brina (he do most of the work, I just stand there volley). Win 4 consecutive basketball matches with Gavin and Kai, super rebound pro!!! Flaw of the week is, have to get science fair group.
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Can't believe I was fucking close to crying when I watched Bewitched on HBO, when the guy break up with the girl. Another perfect, bullshit love story. Now sitting at the balcony, sea breeze damn fucking nice. But I'm starting to feel a chill. Tomoro is big day for tennis, loads of peeps bringing racket to play. Nico say wear all the fuck up shit for fun, maybe I will hahah. Brought 3 mini bottles of alcohol yesterday. Brina drank half of the small vodka and he got fucking tipsy, cannot concentrate on floorball, his face fucking red hahhah!!! Sat at the foyer talking about army stuff, alot of bullshit about some gay platoon that Nic said. Then Brina said something about tying the guy up on a tree and put red ants all over him. Damn funny!!! In about 3 years time have to go already, should be like a longer version of rugby camp or OBS???
Blueregard seems to be missing in action for a long time, must be at that beach I imagined about palau tioman. What are you talking about, I was right here all along. Listening to your pathetic mind reading of your current post. Oh rig....ht, going to sleep now. Hope Dorothy does not come again tomoro.

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crammy holiday

Went to palau tioman with my dad, mom, uncle david and his family. damn sian, as usual, i'm the one stuffed behind with the language for 4 hours with my psp in the car. then when we got there, the ferry went off 2 hours late. damn chibai lah, the fucking malay captain only want to get more people in the boat. then met these 3 ang moh peeps from england, heavy drinkers. they were exchange students, now studying at NUS. for 2 nights, they finished one bottle of absolut vodka, one bottle of Solvent Whisky and fuck loads of beer. then there was this old dude running the bar named bond. he made a bet with the ang moh that if england won israel by more than 2 goals he would give them 6 bottles of beer each. england did, they finished the beer. beer fucking cheap there, same price as a can of coke 1.50 ringit. sea water damn bloody clear there can see loads of pretty fishies and they swim really near your face if you have bread there. quite sian there if you have nothing planned, played pool with dad uncle david and 2 outta 3 of the brits from 4p.m-2a.m on a 7 inch table. drank quite a tad bit of vodka-sprite and abit of martini.

got a gash from the coral, sucks. oh puked 5 times from eating right before going onto the boat, felt pretty good!!!! :) shit haven't done any homework yet. better start now.

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I'll find someone new

GEEZ I need new songs. I need alot of new things. Makes me feel new too! Went out with Anna on Monday. She was a tad bit high though. Spent $5, I repeat $5 on NEOPRINTS!!! WHY WOULD I SPEND SO MUCH ON INSTANT PICTURES??? I'm asking myself now. Even Blueregard doesn't know and he can spend shitloads of money. Watched hairspray and no it was not a good movie in my perspective.

Have to rest for a while, right shoulder cannot take it anymore. It hurts like shit now, serving two baskets of balls every training definitely contributed. Training on thurs, wakeboarding on fri, training on sun. HELL YEAH IT HURTS. BETTER WATCH FOR MY SERVICE NOW DESMOND!!!!!

Woke up at 8 yesterday for tennis training. Then played this AC ex-rugger, I got thrashed like a bitch. Then showered there any met up with Anna at Great World. Waited one and a half hour for her and finally ate at some viet-thai restaurant. Junhung took longer to come. When we finally finished eating, went to support Anna's rugby match. Have to walk through the fucking mud to get there, damn fucking sick. Practically spent the whole day watching girls touch rugby matches. Like Anton said 'the idea of girls touching girls is just great :D'. Quite a number of them have burning hot legs. Then ate SUSHI TEI with JunHung and Anna after that, FUCKING NICE!!!!! Uni sushi, Gyunkin Niku, Tempura Udon, Aburi Sushi and some new dish that is avocado salmon mix!

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So if your lonely,
You know I'm here waiting for you.
I'm just a cross hair
I'm just that shard waiting for you,
and if you leave me,
You'll leave me broken shattered alive
-Franz Ferdinand

God knows how many pieces of shit you've kept, you know best. You didn't have to deny the truth, to them, to people who cared and understood, to me. I wouldn't say you ditched, 'betrayed' or left. You found someone else, someone new, to trust. Have been thinking alot lately. Seems to make sense now. You didn't have to make excuses, or go rounds for me.

A King Size Tub Big Enough for 10 Plus me

OLAH, haven't blogged since... SINCE WHEN JEUS, COMMON FORGOT THE DATE ASSHOLE?!?!? EH you think you damn funny isit... hahahah BLUEREGARD is such a fucking joker!?!?!? I'm telling you if you try another piece of shit on me I'll make you disappear by reading my business book!!!! OOOOOO I'm soooo scared of your business bullshit, just shut up and blog fag. Yes dick, thats what I've been trying to do but you popped up like an erection.

Anyway, went wakeboarding on Friday with Chris Kim and Kai. YEA you suck at that hahahha, I mean least Kai and Chris can start off.... SHUT THE FUCK UP! Alex was good, has his own gear and that kinda shit. The only thing that was a flaw was that more and more people came and the lines were quite long. OH yea, there was this fat ang moh that kept cutting the queue, I mean don't down there try to jump off the seat and act pro. Can't even start off normally but want to jump chhh. Neither can you 'jump off'.... *ignores* KAI NEARLY WENT A ROUND!!!!! WHY DID YOU FUCKING LET GO AT THE LAST TURN!?!?!?!?! WOOP-DEEEDOO, someone trying to ignore me eh? hahahaaaahahah you can't ignore me, I'm like a FIXED NARRATOR IN YOUR PEA BRAIN WHICH IS KINDA SMALL FOR ME, really difficult to stretch my legs here. CAN YOU USE it more so it can actually increase in size??? DON'T NEED TO BE INDIRECT, I'm the only one that can hear you dumbfuck. WOW someone using big words now huh, am I T-A-L-_____-K-I-N-G T-O-O F-A-S-T F-O-R Y-O-U? Well if I was that dumb, you wouldn't be that 'smart' eh? POINT. Carry on dipshit. Then Chris stayed over, his mom called and I was moaning like those porn vids, his mom thought he was having sex or something. You're an asshole for that. I don't exactly need your comment.

During training today, Coach Royson came. Mark pointed a middle finger at him cause Coach said he stand like girl. Then Coach saw it and asked him to fuck off the court to Coach James. I swear, I even think GOD agrees that Coach Royson sounds damn like my brother. Both of them coach tennis before, could imagine the same kinda way they teach..... I think so too. I didn't need that comment either. I don't need you. Oh yea, who was that talking to me during volley session? I was repeating the technique in my head, you were just trying to distract me! Point again! Your really using your brain now. Just shut up. Then went to eat with dad and mom at some Bedok hawker center selling only malay food cause all the chinese want to go home early today, chhh, slackers. Now feeling sleepy, gonna take my leave now.

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P.S: BLUEREGARD IS TEH SEXY SEX GOD!!!!
P.S: IS NOT, now your not cause I imagine your not.
P.S: Point, sweet dreams.
P.S: You better not pop up like last time, I was having a really sweet dream.
P.S: Oh yea sure, of you dating Jessica Alba. She's not even 'hot'.
P.S: YOU TAKE THAT BACK! SHE IS HOTTEST OF THE HOTZORXS!!!!

Contract Terminated, burden

I guess I should take some time off permanently. I should be in-general for making friends, cause when your in-general, what you say matter in-general. When you make better friends, what you say really do make a better impact. I can't blame them for taking me seriously, they were the better friends. Maybe cause there were too many complications on my side. Maybe cause there were loads of bullshit from my side. Maybe cause I've been a bad soldier, not following the platoon. Maybe cause what I really say, really meant something serious to them, I should stop.

Stop having emotional conversations.
Stop sharing my right of mind.
Stop the gossip.
Stop the sadness.
Stop the happiness.
Stop saying bad things.
Stop saying nice things.
Stop my bullshit.
Stop my friendship.

Stop the 'exclusive' outings of only 4, cause now its only 3. Jeus just resigned ABLE company therefore suffering casualties of 25% manpower. Still ABLE company can make it 100% fun. Too much trouble from me, too much trouble to everybody. AnnaJunhungQiJeus

P.S - Anna: was trying to help you with that post right after you blocked me, I was trying to care. Wasn't meant to insult you.

I felt every ounce of me screaming out but the sound was trapped deep in me

Don't feel that good, was really pissed cause Luke pushed my face into the glass window when I was licking it. Hurts like fuck, tears start collecting in my eyes. Happened many times, even when I scratch my nose real bad.

After that, went to canteen and start listening to Nano talk his/her magic. Plays whatever I want to hear everytime, unless there is no song of such in the memory. Then I was at a table with Nic Hui, Qi and her. Nic took my paper popular card out and tore it. She came from changing and asked if that was her card. Nic said 'yes, he tore it' while referring to me. She started saying a whole load of bullshit on why I emotionally cried so easily. Well just in case you were failing your bio like your chem, nose and eyes are closely positioned through sinus therefore effecting both when either irritated. Oh well, since I cry so easily, you? Crying just cause your fat, crying cause people say your fat. Then eat more KFC. Then crying when you walk home alone. Crying when you fall from your horse. Oh yes I remember that one.

Oh how emo can I be, but never cry. You can be a girl with a non-existing hole between your legs, you can use that as an excuse. But seriously don't bullshit and mean it. People get pissed, like how the russian acts.

Played tennis at ssc, manage to get a hint of serving and technical court play. After 2 hours of tennis with Coach James, went to eat. Met up with dad and had a drink. Left in a cab. Thanks, to Qi and her mom for the dog food, haven't fed Spud with that yet.

Got loads of english to do, lit draft due very soon. Gotta try harder to get better grades.

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